:: Well To Start Things Off ::

Well this has been an interesting summer!! 2009 def. has its ups and downs! To think that 2010 is just so close blows my mind.





That start of this year was fun. I FINALLY turned 21 this year woo hoo!!! Since then I have had alot of fun. Went to the bars/clubs etc. right away. I found me a nice group of people to hang out with on the weekends. Brandy, Patrick, Dom (who already knew) Nick, Jimi, BB, Dave, etc. Annnnd come to find out that my boy Dave is dating my girl Christina! I was so excited to see her when we ran into each other. I had gone over to Nicks house and there she was, kinda did that double look thing when ya think ya saw something but your not too sure, lol. Well since then we have kept in touch with one another and have had alot of good times!! She is really a sweet and fun girl.


I realized this coinscidence back in Sept. last year, but this year we have hung out a lot.





Lisa has moved down to North Carolina with Larry. She and him are down there with the kids living their lives to the fullest I guess. No drama for real, just chillen with the country folk. I go down and visit here every now and then to just get away from here for even just a few hours like I did last night! Lisa is a good person to be around when you are stressed out, and thats only tho if SHE is in a good mood, because she will drag you out of your funk. If it wasn't for her and Brandi years ago when my ex and I broke up, I would have been a mess, if it wasn't for them two pointing out that I deserved better, I would have been a mess, so thanks guys, YOU ROCK!!!





Jessica is doing well, working at Chichos at 29th street. She is living in an apartment down there near the oceanfront. Her and I are doing well, we butt heads all the time, well not ALL the time but ya know! Its Jessica and I when haven't we. We just two hard headed, high strung people! Lol, poor Lisa has to put up with us.





My brother has moved to NC with his girlfriend/fiance. Which is Heather who he used to date back when they were in high school. I like her alot and I am very happy for them both. She has a little girl, and he is going to hopefully adopt after they marry 9/10/11. She is the cutest little thing.





Went to my family reunion this year, we took out Davids ashes to the moselium to be placed to rest with my grandmother! The rest of him (sounds horrible) was put on Lake Tahoe in Nevada/California. My dad, and aunts and 2 of my cousins went to Reno and they did all of that, wish I could have gone with them. But I did make it to the reunion and had a blast! We all stayed at the Comfort Inn like always, and had the reunion at the Church like always. This year was nice, we had the memorial at 10am, then went to the church to eat at 12. We all ate lunch at 12 and then talked and walked around the land for a bit, then we all went back to the hotel and sat around the pool and relaxed! My family is a hoot, I love them so much they always have you laughing and wondering how in the world. They are a tough crowd to deal with at times, but we are all wild and fun.





Around the time of the beg. of summer I started talking to someone. A good friend of mine who I have known for a few years. He made me laugh, made me smile every time i looked at him. We always joked, and had fun together and so we made it official and said we would try it out and see how it goes. Well we didn't even make it a month haha. I know that things can get rocky during a relationship, and you will have your ups and downs. But when everything is going just right and then it goes horribly wrong, ya get a little confused. Nothing negative was even going on in our relationship, at all. But he is apparently money hungry, gold diggers are the worst. Rather be miserable like he was with "her" than be happy with me then so be it. I need me a man that will care/respect me like I do them in return. You always treat someone the way you want to be treated. And I will admit at times I would be aggravated about things going on in my life, and I might have taken it out on him but there was no reason to lie, or go behind my back!! She is just a dumbass broad with no backbone or respect for herself. Pretty sad story actually. Haha, very sad to be exact. Believe anything she hears, and is so desperate that she HAS TO HAVE HIM in her life lol. Worthless the both of them. To think that you can be friends with someone and they don't lie to you, don't hide things from you, then as soon you become someone they should tell first you become the last to know. I thought maybe he would have more respect for me as a friend than to lie to me as his girlfriend. He didnt want to "lose" me but yet he was ventured off with her. Hmmmm may never know why he did it, why he betrayed my trust, why anything at that. Everyone has been shocked, sorta. Knew he would want her money again because he doesn't have any and she will do ANYTHING to keep him around. But I know I am a better person than her, better looking, better all around than her. Owell just feels like a huge stab in the back thats all. Makes no sense to me, never will.

Well enough about that, life will get back on track eventually. Sooner than later I hope. Saw alot of close friends this weekend and had a lot of fun out with them. We did the cook out thing, bar thing, went down and saw Lisa on Friday night and stayed with her. Just in a little bit of rebuilding right now with myself. Hard and shitty but I will be ok. Just tired of putting myself in harms way. Tired of being used and just thrown to the side like a piece of meat. Ugh! This whole thing has my mind so boggled. And the fact that all of HIS boys have still been hitting me up to chill/party/drink etc. is funny. Sad when I have a convo with one of them and they say to me that he fucked up, he is an idiot, that him and her will never work out or at least if they do it will be miserable for both of them. And that great now everyone has to hear them two bitch and complain to one another like they used to ALLLLLL the time. ::Throws up:: Good luck fellas, wouldnt have had that problem if it were me hm? Lol..... Well I am outta here, I need to stop complaining and dwelling on that idiot of a boy. Holler back!!